Unwritten Her

27/04/2025

We’ve had a nice lazy weekend. It’s strange; as the weekend approaches when it’s just me and the kids, I often feel myself getting anxious. How will I fill up the time without losing my mind? I spend so much time wanting them to be with me but I’m also filled with dread when I have them on my own. I desparately miss the ‘family unit’, even 4 years on.

Today, one of Sindy’s friends’ mum’s (my apostrophe’s are definitely incorrect) had organised a play date. I brought Moses and his friend too. They all went to Laser Tag and the ‘mums’ had a 40-minute chat over very loud music. One was separated, (relatively newly) and so we spent most of the time complaining about ex-husbands. Luckily, Cora’s, whose marriage was still in tact, was able to sufficiently contribute as her husband certainly wasn’t perfect. Most of it was me wondering why men are so difficult and if it really is genetics? I don’t know if it makes me feel better or worse. It was a therapeutic session anyway.

After Laser Tag, I had resolved to go to JB Hifi and fix Moses’s watch which is new and not working but JB Hifi is in the opposite direction of the car and I don’t think I can face it. Instead, we go home and I assure Moses I’ll get it fixed. I make dinner. I felt inspired to make pumpkin soup which I made and no one ate so I put it back in the fridge and said we can have it for lunch tomorrow (the kids agreed knowing they probably wouldn’t eat it for lunch tomorrow).

We watched a terrific movie called ‘Spirited Away’ and then off to bed for all of us. The bedtime routine took a while mostly because they both wanted to sleep with me and I really didn’t feel like I could do a night fully squashed when I have a head cold (which I do).

I’ve bid them goodnight and said they could come to my room later. I hope they don’t wake up in the middle of the night so later never comes.

Can I please also just recommend Spirited Away. LOVED. IT. SO. MUCH.